Slow, steady, painful realization
sinking into the depths of my heart
and weaving into each thought
that crosses my mind with every
waking moment.

What I desire,
that which I wish for,
will not, can not be mine.

I need to, I have to
accept it and run
before the pain rips through
and tears me apart completely.

But, how do I run
when this grips me so tightly
and I don’t know how to let go.
How do I run
when my heart
wont listen to reason.

Where do I find the courage,
the strength to wrestle
with these feelings and overcome
and just run…..